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I believe, that only once in your life, you find the One Big Love -
This  might not be the "forever after" love, however, this is a life changing love.  A love that leaves you enriched, empowered, and maybe broken........

a Love that teaches you and grows you, you start out as a rose bud and leave all grown, blooming with an amazing perfume that permeates through your body and being.

This will be the most amazing lessons, and a love to always remember.  The memories that linger like the sweet smell of French Vanilla and Roses.  The memory lanes that make you smile, deep in your mind, body and soul.

When I loved like this, I lost my identity, becoming a faceless woman, a woman that could only function with him as my focus, my guiding light. He was my beginning and end, my reason for jumping out of bed in the mornings.  The reason for rushing home after a long day.  My reason for breathing, my reason for learning and pushing myself.  He was the driving force of my whole existence. He motivated me without words, to become the best me I could be.

A love that is all encompassing, all consuming.  Something that takes over your Mind, Body, Soul and Spirit.  It transcends into each and every molecule even forms a permual membrane of your DNA.

This type of love forms either one of two Emotions, either a irrational or a rational love that flourishes and grow.  It might form an integral part of your life when its rational or it will disintegrate you when it becomes irrational..

It might even consume you, leaving your burnt out and like a Phoenix a heap of ashes, however the Phoenix then goes through a rebirth and a new life can start.

Regardless of what the affect of this love is, it will forever be part of you.  It will forever be imprinted into your existence.  This love changed me into the Woman I am today.

I am proud to say, I had my one "Big Love", the love that left me better, enriched, cultured and educated.  The love that gave me gifts without waiting for payment.  The love that gave Blessings and still keeps on giving.

I have a friend forever, a friend I will love till the day I die.  a Friend that will never be replaced.  a Friend that will always be my lover in my mind and soul.  Forever........

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When you see soo much hatred, anger, war, violence, there must be something inside your Spirit that reflects and question your own approach, or the way you deal with people....

Every person goes through his / her life with their own "demons" to fight off daily, we don't know what it might be.  The reality is that every single one of us, has struggles and challenges, maybe some more than others, however, we all definitely have.

Doesn't matter if you are rick or poor, fat or thin, pretty or ugly, whatever you think of yourself, or whatever you perceive yourself to be, lets get real, everyone has problems.

"if you could be anything in this world, be kind" Gandhi

Healing

I have reached a point in my life that I thought, WOW, I've made it...... Got the Career down, reaching my goals, achieving my targets.  My marriage is good, we love each other.  My daughter is doing amazingly well at school, all her University plans is basically organised, etc etc etc.

We underestimate the devil, and we forget that we are living in a fallen world.  We forget that when Satan was cast out of Heaven, he became the Owner of this world. We become complacent.  We pray, worship and we know under Grace and Mercy of Christ we are safe, however Satan is always busy, he comes like a thieve in the night, to steal from us.

What is the thing that Satan hates in my life?  My happy marriage, my happiness and my family's happiness.

In a short period of 2 weeks, I was notified that I will be retrenched, my Husband left, and I lost the baby I was carrying.

Even after Father God gave me the name of my unborn child, Satan came in and destroyed.

Not for one moment did I ever think that the destruction could be so devastating and so quick.

I wanted to just die, I felt so broken over the last couple of weeks, I am sooo broken and my life is in pieces, but.......

Father God promises in John10:10 that Jesus came to give us life, life in abundance.  I am praying continuously that He will revive my heart, spirit and soul and that Jesus will as the ABSOLUTE HEALER put everything in my heart, spirit and soul back together.

Love and Light, always in Jesus Christ.

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So., what a horrible subject to write about..............


But here goes:


On the 23rd of April 2015 I had my third miscarriage over a short period of 12 months.  How does things like this happen to us.  We are loved by the Most High, we are His beloved daughters.


As I was waiting on the bed at the Emergency section of the Hospital, sobbing like a baby, I immediately knew, I lost the baby.  I instinctively knew, just knew, and I didn't know how to explain this to my absolute blessing of a husband, standing next to me, trying to console me.  I think its only when you have had a pregnancy and a miscarriage when you instinctively know when something is wrong, something is horribly wrong.


Having been checked out and confirmed that a procedure needs to take place the next morning to remove the "fetus" I feel empty.  I feel depleted, tired, exhausted and old.  What is wrong with me?  Has my womb dried up, died, stopped working ????.....
In my head I'm calling out to God,
why......!!!!!!!!!????????????  Why.....!!!!!!!!!?????????


Its nearly a month later, and I am better, but I don't have the correct answer or comfort yet, but I believe that He loves me, I am His beloved daughter.  I know that I will survive this, and that only Blessings will come out of this.


Rom 8:28

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Everlasting God

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So .....
Sometimes in life you will need help, either financially,  emotionally or sometimes even a roof over your head.

I've been in all of the above scenarios and scary to admit,  but I had NO ONE . I always had to make due.  Taking care of my daughter,  working and studying.  I vowed that if the situation was reversed I will help those in need.  Family,  friends or even strangers.   Funny though if you have experienced hardships you are more sympathetic and empathetic.

Unfortunately also you find people that will use you and your pure intentions to their own advantage, and to the helpers undoing........

God wants us to love our neighbours and He wants us to help those in need, but when the situation is putting your relationship or your safety in jeopardy it's time to say, God Bless and take care.

Just, My Truth..

My Truth "Family"

Family is definitely not only blood,  but I truly includes your closest and dearest people around you.

The once that you allow into your precious heart.  And our heart's are sooooo precious and sensitive and needs to be handled with care.

Unfortunately most of the injuries your precious heart receives are given to by your blood family. Not always on purpose, but yes, sometimes. .....

That's exactly in that moment and in those places of our hearts where we then start to adopt friends as family.  One of the most painful lessons for me was to accept that often the adopted family loves you with a deeper love and has a more profound understanding of your specific needs and wants.

When the healing starts and you forgive and set free the people that did injured your heart you don't naturally grow close to them again . The walls have been built and rebuilding trust can takes years!!!!!

I'm overwhelmed by the gratitude and love I have for my adopted family,  and I pray that God will Bless everyone that's reading this now, to also find those special friends and adopt them as family

Blessings